Head

I wasn't planning to post anything tonight, but my wife said I needed to and I AM glad to have my laptop back after repairs (the loaner I've had since last week sucked goats!), so what the hell? You know what's on my mind--blowjobs. I know, hardly an original thought in our world of adult blogging. In fact, in just the past week, at least two of my fellow bloggers,
WryGirl and Dirty Secrets Girl have done awesome posts about giving head from the woman's perspective, and of course Des is always talking about how much she loves sucking cock. (If I left anyone else out, I apologize, but I haven't been a terribly attentive reader lately). So what could I possibly bring to the table? Who knows, but when has that ever stopped me?

I have always been a great fan of the blowjob. I thought, and still do a bit, that nearly every guy loves getting head, although much to my surprise, there are some who don't like it so much. Go figure. My first knowledge of blowjobs was, as with most sexual things, a complete lack of knowledge. When I was in grade school, the older, cooler kid we hung around with on my block said that he knew you could get "fucked and blown" for $20 up at the reservoir. Forget that I didn't even think there was anything sketchy about going up into the woods by the reservoir to get laid, I didn't know what "blown" was but it sounded nice. At some point I finally saw porn and decided, yes, yes sir, that's for me--I'd like one of those. My poor girlfriends throughout junior high were bound to be disappointments, since none of them was ready to go down on me. But being the nice, passive guy I was, I certainly wasn't going to push the issue, and so I waited.

My first blowjob was junior year of high school, my first REALLY serious girlfriend, whom I also later lost my virginity to. We were parked in her brown 78 Mustang out by the quarry (as you do), probably about a month after we'd started "going out". As with all my girlfriends, she'd pursued me and asked me out through a friend, and I'd heard through the grapevine that she was a gamer, so my hopes were up. From the driver's side of the car, she unzipped me after a bit of making out and made me feel like a man. Or a very happy boy with his cock in a girl's mouth for the first time. I think it was pretty good, although I'm sure it wouldn't have mattered much to me. What I remember most was struggling to get my hand inside her stretch jeans to rub her pussy, even though I'm sure I never made her come. From that day on, my mission was to find as many opportunities as possible for her to give me head--it was never enough. One specially good one came one day that we spent at her house, with her parents home and upstairs, where she blew me on the floor of their living room, and I still remember her holding my cock against her cheek and kissing it like it was the nicest present anyone had ever given her.

Of course, we didn't last, but I was lucky enough to have another girlfriend my senior year who liked to give head too. She was actually my best friend for a long time, but when I heard that she blew a guy on our class trip to Washington DC, I thought, hey why not? I got many enjoyable blowjobs in the basement of her parents' house--she was a hard sucker, totally different sensation than the first one.

The college years were lean ones for blowjobs, although I did manage to find a summer hookup for a couple of years that I hung out with when I was home, and she was more than happy to pleasure me even though she was "saving herself". It was just enough to remind me how much I liked it.

When I met my wife, she proved quickly to be an excellent mouth-lover, and best of all, she really like doing it for me. I've even "caught" her reading sites about how to deep-throat, and once she offered to blow me at least once a day, any time I wanted it. Unfortunately, that was back when I was a defective idiot, and I found myself unable to make even the little effort she wanted to ask for it. But she's always given me good head, sometimes even upon request. Over the years, she keeps getting better and better, and I love when I notice a new move or technique she's using. Learning is good. When she began sucking my balls as well, my world changed forever.

The appeal for me, aside from the physical sensation of it, is several things. One is that it feels even more intimate than fucking, to have my cock in her mouth, such a deeply personal interaction. It's that complete acceptance of my body into hers, and that's a big part of why I like to watch. Another is that the idea of your partner WANTING to suck your cock feeds the male ego on a very fundamental level. My take on it is that she WANTS to do this thing that, to my way of understanding, provides no direct stimulation for her, yet turns her on nonetheless. Feeling like my cock is desired in that way is a powerful feeling.

I'm rather divided on the growing prevalence of oral sex in teenagers over the last several years. On the one hand, I wish it had happened when I was that age. On the other hand, I recognize that it's putting kids in positions and situations they're not emotionally prepared for. And on yet a third hand, I feel like it's somewhat cheapening something which I find very special. Yes, it is sort of hot to think that a girl will blow a guy (and do it well, no half-ass jobs here!) without a lot of fuss, but then again, it makes it less special to receive a truly intimate, involved blowjob. Maybe there should be two different words for it, like "fucking" and "making love". Or maybe I should just lay back and enjoy it.